An empty feeling is scary. It would be bad if you decided to think that was the worse ever. It is right as the world scream out loud it’s right, as it should be that way. A human with thoughts and feelings is scary. Robots on the other hand is an easy piece with complicatedly structured fractions that make a robot robot. I see myself turns black and white and switching faces as great as everybody can see me as it’s who I am. It’s also right. It’s also me. But not me in the moment that I’m down. I hate the word hate but its extremity is exactly how terrible I feel about myself. I gradually practicing the habit of forgetting things. At first, it’s hard. I got stress easily because I want to balance out my fuckin emotions. I want to reach the stage of “0”, where nothing means none. Then, I recently found out I could actually let memories and things go to the world of the none. Ah, it feel great, or isnt it? Am I developing Alzheimer’s disease? Ha… this is complicated. My dad-figure said it is the sign of happiness. Yeah I believe him, so I believe in that theory. I accept it and I’m the happy person. Speaking about it, that is good for me to believe in that way too. Therefore, enough data to categorize it to the “right” box.
if one day things don’t turn out the way I used to believe in, that shit ain’t fun. I’m flying under the blue sky pretend like I’m the most skilled bird while I’m just a fucking human with limbs and flesh. Ha… got hair but not enough to qualify a birdy standard. Shame on me.! But I will just flipthe page cause he said, whatever the yesterday me did, it would need to take responsibility, I am, the one of tomorrow has nothing to do with those shits. Ah ha… how convenient! I got too much things going on in my head that slowly fade to nothing. The “none” stage just take its first tick. And if one day I have noone surround, maybe there is no face available to switch up or you get tired of my freak self. No idea. I’m scary. Yes, I am. I should go to hell for the cleaner world. Ha.. fool you, I’m still alive. What’s next?!